butterfly

im still young
and they call me a caterfillar
who love to crawl crawl crawl
until the time came and i grow

i become a larva
that hanging on a pole
have two antenna
on my small head

now that i have two wings
people see me as a butterfly
love to fly
specially in the sky

im just an insect
that have a feelings
i have a heart
that doesn't apart

problema lumayo ka

hanggang kailan tatayo
ilang beses na nadapa
pero hindi ako sumuko
at hindi nagpatalo

ngayon ay nagdurusa
mga mata'y lumuluha
Damdamin ay pagod na
at ayaw ng masaktan pa

kaya sana tama na
kasi hindi ko na kaya
problema lumayo ka
at hwag ng magparamdam pa

lungkot ang nararamdaman
ngayong araw na ako'y mag-isa
isip ay gulung-gulo
durog-durog na puso

problema lumayo ka
ayaw na kitang maramdaman pa
ayaw ko ng lumuha
ayaw ko ng magdusa

luhaang mga mata!

malungkot ako ngayong araw na ito, madami akong iniisip at madaming gumugulo sa isip ko. Nangungulila sa mga kaibigan sa pilipinas..11:00 na nang gabi pero hindi ako makatulog kakaisip at kakaiyak. madaming problema na gumugulo sa aking isipan. halu halong sakit ang aking nararamdaman. naiinis at naaasar, akala ko kaya kong labanan ang mga sakit na aking nararamdaman pero hindi pala, hindi ko kayang pigilan ang pagpatak ng mga luha sa aking mga mata, hindi ko kayang pigilan ang galit at lungkot na aking nararamdaman. akala ko matapang ako pero hindi pala. napakahina ko. hindi ko pala kayang harapin ang mga problema na aking hinaharap ngayon. Naawa ako sa sarili ko kasi hindi ko magawa ang nararapat para dito hindi ko kayang ipaglaban ito sa kalungkutan na aking nararamdaman. Masyado na akong naapektuhan sa mga nangyayari sa aking paligid lalo na dito sa bahay. Masayahin akong tao pero sa kabila ng aking pagiging masayahin ay isang taong duguan at luhaan ang puso. Palabiro at palangiti pero malungkot sa loob. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko, hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Masyado akong nagiging emosyonal at nagpapaapekto sa mga bagay bagay. Pagod na pagod na ako pero anong magagawa ko? Minsan iniisip ko nalang na lahat ng ito ay pagsubok lng pero hanggang kailan matatapos at hanggang kailan nya sasaktan ang aking damdamin.. Pagsubok na magdadala sa akin upang ako'y magiging matatag pero hindi ganun yung nangyayari eh, mas lalo akong humihina at mas lalo akong sumusuko kasi masakit na, nasasaktan na ako at hindi ko na kaya. Kung pagsubok nga ang lahat ng ito sana matapos na kasi sa totoo lang ayoko na, pagod na ako at ayoko ng lumuha ang aking mga mata!

clock

tic tack tic tack
i have this 3 hands
for hour, minute and for second
wake up, wake up

its midnight and its 12:00
either morning or night
They set me for alarm
they let me make a sound

tic tack tic tack
I'm with numbers 1-10
I'll let you know when your late
I'll let you now if its time to eat

when you got appointment, you look at me
when you have a date, you stare at me
tic tack tic tack
I'm your clock

THE EYES

Some are huge
Some are small
Some are rounds
Some shape like an almond

it shows me how bright is my Day
Direct me to my right way
keep me away from loosing
it help me recognize the color of everything

Some would say, its my asset
because of it glimpse
sometimes tears running down
My mom said, here's my handkerchief

thanks god i have this
i can see myself in the mirror
as well as numbers
Capital and small letters



as you open it in the morning
you can see some glory
you have to wipe it darling
so sight would be clearly

matutong Lumaban!!

simula ng bata ako, mahina na ako, matatakutin at lampa, kinalikhan ko na ito. Hanggang ngayon dinadala ko parin ito, pero pinipilit kong labanan,pinipilit kong lumaban at tumayo pag akoy nadadapa at lumulubog. Hindi ako palaban na tao at lalong hindi ako matapang. Sabi nila maging matapang ako para man lang sa sarili ko, lumaban ako at ipaglaban ang sarili ko sa mga taong nang-aapi sa akin. Kaya mo bang labanan ang mga taong tinitira ang emosyon mo?! yun ang pinakamasakit sa lahat kung ang emosyon na ang pilit na sinasaktan ng iba, iniiyak ko nalang ang lahat at tinatanggap ang lahat ng sakit na aking nararamdaman at kinikimkim ang galit sa puso. Hindi ako lumalaban na tao pero Hindi ako mapagpatawad na tao!. Pag ako nasaktan mahirap magpatawad ang aking puso. Masayahin akong tao at makulit pero sa likod ng mga ngiting ito ay malungkot na puso! madami akong pinagdadaanan ngayon. Pero eto natuto na akong lumaban, dahil sa mga nangyayari sa akin eto mas naging matatag ako at hinding hindi ako bibitaw at tatakbo..!pipilit kong tumayo at lumaban! kailangan kong lumaban para sa mga pangarap ko sa buhay at para sa pamilya ko.!Lalaban ako hanggang kailan, at lalaban ako hanggang ma kakaya ko at hanggnag may ihihinga pa ako!

who I'm?!

Who I'm?!- maybe if you hear this question, i know some of you will going to freak out "what the heck is she doing? why is she asking her self who is she?!" some words cruising around all over your mind..! as a matter of fact i know who I'm, My name is Faina Daguio, residing at wailuku, i have 2 sisters and 4 brothers..But that's not the answer of my question, and that's not what i really mean. What i mean is Who I'm in the eyes of the lord and people around me, what are my weaknesses and strength, what are my skills and ability, what are the things i can do and i can't do.
I don't want to pretend to be someone, i don't want to hide in the shadow of others. I want to be my self and I'm trying to but i hope people stop being so judge mental. admit i got this attitude which people doesn't really like but i can't help stop doing it because its a part of my life, its one of my attitude that god given to me. There's no perfect one in this world, i can't be perfect and i can't be the one you like, but I'm not telling you to love me or to like me all i want is you to accept me for being who I'm. I know at quite times i hurt your feelings but i don't mean it and I'm very willing to apologize for what i have sin.! If you just accept me you will see the true I'm and you will see that i have a open a soft heart which make me cose to you.!

"HIM"

I'm with you in my happiest moment of my life
you made me smile and you made me laugh
every single word you spoke
you made me in love

the time has come and you're gone
happy memories still remember
thinking of your sweet smile
and the warm hand when you hold me tight

you love me as i love you
you care as i care
you value me until now
that's why you're so special

you're still in my heart
though you're with someone
wish i could let time back
to show you how lucky am i to have you in my life

here I'm passing by
not to say goodbye
but to say hi!
and say thank you for everything

past is past
future is future
forget and forgive
and move on

what am i destine to be?!

i been thinking this all night and day, what am i going to be?!..am i destine to be a nurse, artist, singer, dancer and etc., or its just me making my own path and way to be what im going to be?!I like to be everything, i want to be flexible in a lot of things pero hanggang saan ang kaya kong gawin?! ayokong gumawa ng bagay na sa huli ay pagsisisihan ko at masasaktan lang ako in the fact that i can't do it or i did'nt do it or i don't have enough ability and skill to do it!. Masakit isipin na ang akala mong kayang mong gawin ay hindi mo pala kaya. Pero ayokong mawalan ng pag-asa, kailangan maging positive ka sa lahat ng bagay at isipin mo na kaya mo!I took a nursing course in the philippines and in a two years of studying alam ko na kinaya ko sya at masaya ako sa ginagawa ko and now that im going back to school for the RN program, i dont know if i still really can do it but on the other hand i really want this, this is i want- to pursue this course. Am i destine to be a nurse?!i don't know,however i planned for this and i really want it!

learn from you mistake..

walang perpektong tao sa mundo..bawat isa sa atin ay may pagkakamali.pero ang mga maling yun minsan hindi natin sinasadya! minsan nagsisisi tayo pero huli na.! sabi nga matuto ka sa bawat pagkakamali mo sa buhay.Tulad ko, madami akong kamalian na nagawa sa buhay iba dun sadya na hndi ko naman talaga ginustong gawain kundi napilitan lang at iba kusa talagang nangyari.! sa lahat ng mga pagkakamaling ito, dito ako natuto. natuto na lumaban at natutong iyangat ang buhay.!mga pagkakamaling nagdala sa akin ng kabiguan pero sa huli nagturo sa akin upang maging mas matatag at mas maging responsable!.bawat pagkakamali may katapat na kabiguan at minsan may katapat naman na karangyaan sa buhay.! Pero ako ayoko ng magkamali, kasi ayokong may masaktan akong iba pag nagkamali ako, siempre iniisip ko ang kapakanan ng taong mga nakapaligid sa akin pero hndi ko talaga maiiwasan.. ang mga pagkakamali sa buhay pwede mo pang itama kung gugustuhin mo at ang pagkakamali ang syang nagtuturo sa atin kung ano ang tama..!kaya matuto sa iyong pagkakamali at matuto sa pagkakamali ng iba!

Dear GOD

now that year had past and a year came in..i just wanna take GOD!
Thanks for all the blessing and opportunities you gave me, i know year 2007 is a difficult year for me..so much trials and challenges but you've been my partner to solve all of these..you always behind and beside me. even though i can't see it, i feel it. Thanks for giving me one more year to live. Thanks for the trust and thanks for letting me to accomplish all my responsibilities in life. Thanks for keeping me safe all nyt and day!. thanks for the gud health you gave to the family. Thanks for keeping me into your hands..thanks for holding me tight. Thanks for your word and salvation.! thanks for directing me to the ryt path of my way to the success of my life!. thanks for having me us you daughter and thanks for having me as a part of you!.Hope this 2008 is a great year and hope more blessings to come..! LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY GOD!

love conquers all

Do you believe that

love conquers all

?. I don't wanna conquer things just for the sake of love!.i know that to be love is the most happiest and exciting part of one's life. But do they know that to love is the most painful and sadness of a one's life too?.I know that when were in love were happy at the same time were sad. Love is vague. Love broke one's heart and make us cry, specially to those vulnerable people. it makes our heart anguish a lot!. i don't know what really can love do. but if i love someone I'm just gonna let god decide if he will let me feel happy or let me feel sad, I'll do this coz i trust him... and only because i believe in destiny..if I'm rily destine to be with him then will be together but if not then not!. what if you love someone but he doesn't even feel anything on you! r u still gonna conquer things for him? r u still gonna run after him? r u still gonna give your world and happiness to him! OH Boy FORGET IT!...I'm just gonna conquer the pain and let my self to move on.! coz i don't wanna make things worst, i gonna give up my love for him and try to find someone who can replace him on my heart.I'll let somebody to embark my heart who show some love and give worth to me!instead of being sad feel free and happy and just think that you're not meant for each Oder and god planned all this things!

a feeling of being left alone...

i want to be a lone in times of sadness and madness, i don't know why and its really hard to explain, all i know is that when I'm alone,i have this feeling of indifference, where in, i can overcome my weaknesses and it help me to become a strong person which help me to conquer those problems and challenges in life. I've usually stay in a darkroom with a little bit music in the background and rather than that no more. I'm lying down in my bed and thinking about the memories of my childhood and memories of being a girl. I have fun doing this things-day dreaming. Since i was a kid, I've had notice that i like being alone at quite times. I'd rather choose to stay in my room by myself that to go to a disco bar and movie theater with friends. I love to think and i love to built my own world in my own mind. I need to socialize with other people because i need it but to fulfill my needs i also need to be alone.!!!

why don't you give love not only xmas day instead everyday!

can u feel and see that on xmas day, people are in its positive way and they are nicer!? masaya na din yun xe malamig ang mga ulo ng mga tao kasi malamig din ang panahon..hehehehehe
sabi nga give love on xmas day, hndi ba pwedeng araw arw na lng para masya lahat..! evrybody are doing charities on xmas, giving some gifts( old clothes, canned goods, old shoes and used toys)..why only xmas do we guys think those such thing? why don't we just do it everyday..helping those less fortunate are really the amidst of xmas...ipamalas natin sa kanila kung gaano kasaya ang pasko kahit man walang handa sa noche buena..!..family is one of the most important on xmas..family gathering or family reunion.! pag xmas nagbibigay ng regalo! pero hindi mo kailangan bumili ng regalong mamahalin pag xmas para sa akin sapat na ang binigay mong oras para batiin ako ng Merry christmas.! ang mga pambili mo nang mamahaling regalo ay pwede mong ibili ng sadwhich para ibigay sa mga street children! napasaya mo na ako, napasaya mo pa ang mga bata at nabusog pa sila... diba ang saya saya..! Pangarap ko talaga ang makatulong sa kapwa ko..kaya sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, kung makakaluwag luwag lng ako ng konti..magpapatayo ako ng charity ko or foundation man lng para maipamalas at maishare ko din sa kanila ang magandand blessing na binibigay ng poong may kapal!..wish ko lng sana maging masaya lahat ang ating xmas! at sana makapagpasaya tayo ngayong xmas!merry xmas everyone!!

a young girl turned to a woman!

My mom is the happiest girl in the world when a baby girl came out into this world and that baby girl is me i guess. I remember when i was a child, i love playing dolls and playing stuff toys. I love to eat candies and chocolates, i cried a lot and at night i asked my mom for a milk. At the time i learned to walk everybody seems to be very happy, i can always see the smile on there face in every step i took. In every words i spoke, happiness occur. They taught me how to jump, hop, run and walk. They taught me how to sing and dance. I still remember the days when my sister and i are playing around, we're everybody is laughing and some are frowning because of every noise i made. Sometimes my mom get mad because of being quite rascal and mean (as my dad too), even before i always love to play around with everything, i love to laugh and love to joke people around. At the age of 6 I've started to go school. I learned ABC, 123 and a lot of kiddie songs, i learned how to pray and started to have a friends and make friends with everyone. And now that I'm at the stage of adolescence, those days are just only now a memory of my past. Now that I'm in a different stage of life, everything had change, my physical appearance, characteristic, behavior and the whole me. A young girl turned to woman. I love the way i'am today, now that im more responsible in such a lot of things, sometimes i still have this playful attitude but i put it in the right time and right place. Like what ive said always, i have this diff. perspective and views and life. i love to learn a lot of things and want to explore people lives, i want to enhance my skills and to develop my ability to become a strong person and to be a good citizen. This is now the right time that a girl like me turned to a woman who have a lot of goals and dreams to achieve. I want to be a role model for the youth and i just want to share my knowledge to the young people. i hope someday, society will be proud for having me as a woman into our nation.