a feeling of being left alone...

i want to be a lone in times of sadness and madness, i don't know why and its really hard to explain, all i know is that when I'm alone,i have this feeling of indifference, where in, i can overcome my weaknesses and it help me to become a strong person which help me to conquer those problems and challenges in life. I've usually stay in a darkroom with a little bit music in the background and rather than that no more. I'm lying down in my bed and thinking about the memories of my childhood and memories of being a girl. I have fun doing this things-day dreaming. Since i was a kid, I've had notice that i like being alone at quite times. I'd rather choose to stay in my room by myself that to go to a disco bar and movie theater with friends. I love to think and i love to built my own world in my own mind. I need to socialize with other people because i need it but to fulfill my needs i also need to be alone.!!!