a feeling of being left alone...

i want to be a lone in times of sadness and madness, i don't know why and its really hard to explain, all i know is that when I'm alone,i have this feeling of indifference, where in, i can overcome my weaknesses and it help me to become a strong person which help me to conquer those problems and challenges in life. I've usually stay in a darkroom with a little bit music in the background and rather than that no more. I'm lying down in my bed and thinking about the memories of my childhood and memories of being a girl. I have fun doing this things-day dreaming. Since i was a kid, I've had notice that i like being alone at quite times. I'd rather choose to stay in my room by myself that to go to a disco bar and movie theater with friends. I love to think and i love to built my own world in my own mind. I need to socialize with other people because i need it but to fulfill my needs i also need to be alone.!!!

why don't you give love not only xmas day instead everyday!

can u feel and see that on xmas day, people are in its positive way and they are nicer!? masaya na din yun xe malamig ang mga ulo ng mga tao kasi malamig din ang panahon..hehehehehe
sabi nga give love on xmas day, hndi ba pwedeng araw arw na lng para masya lahat..! evrybody are doing charities on xmas, giving some gifts( old clothes, canned goods, old shoes and used toys)..why only xmas do we guys think those such thing? why don't we just do it everyday..helping those less fortunate are really the amidst of xmas...ipamalas natin sa kanila kung gaano kasaya ang pasko kahit man walang handa sa noche buena..!..family is one of the most important on xmas..family gathering or family reunion.! pag xmas nagbibigay ng regalo! pero hindi mo kailangan bumili ng regalong mamahalin pag xmas para sa akin sapat na ang binigay mong oras para batiin ako ng Merry christmas.! ang mga pambili mo nang mamahaling regalo ay pwede mong ibili ng sadwhich para ibigay sa mga street children! napasaya mo na ako, napasaya mo pa ang mga bata at nabusog pa sila... diba ang saya saya..! Pangarap ko talaga ang makatulong sa kapwa ko..kaya sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, kung makakaluwag luwag lng ako ng konti..magpapatayo ako ng charity ko or foundation man lng para maipamalas at maishare ko din sa kanila ang magandand blessing na binibigay ng poong may kapal!..wish ko lng sana maging masaya lahat ang ating xmas! at sana makapagpasaya tayo ngayong xmas!merry xmas everyone!!

a young girl turned to a woman!

My mom is the happiest girl in the world when a baby girl came out into this world and that baby girl is me i guess. I remember when i was a child, i love playing dolls and playing stuff toys. I love to eat candies and chocolates, i cried a lot and at night i asked my mom for a milk. At the time i learned to walk everybody seems to be very happy, i can always see the smile on there face in every step i took. In every words i spoke, happiness occur. They taught me how to jump, hop, run and walk. They taught me how to sing and dance. I still remember the days when my sister and i are playing around, we're everybody is laughing and some are frowning because of every noise i made. Sometimes my mom get mad because of being quite rascal and mean (as my dad too), even before i always love to play around with everything, i love to laugh and love to joke people around. At the age of 6 I've started to go school. I learned ABC, 123 and a lot of kiddie songs, i learned how to pray and started to have a friends and make friends with everyone. And now that I'm at the stage of adolescence, those days are just only now a memory of my past. Now that I'm in a different stage of life, everything had change, my physical appearance, characteristic, behavior and the whole me. A young girl turned to woman. I love the way i'am today, now that im more responsible in such a lot of things, sometimes i still have this playful attitude but i put it in the right time and right place. Like what ive said always, i have this diff. perspective and views and life. i love to learn a lot of things and want to explore people lives, i want to enhance my skills and to develop my ability to become a strong person and to be a good citizen. This is now the right time that a girl like me turned to a woman who have a lot of goals and dreams to achieve. I want to be a role model for the youth and i just want to share my knowledge to the young people. i hope someday, society will be proud for having me as a woman into our nation.